Wednesday, September 19, 2012

Letter to My Crush

Dear Crush,

My name is Christa. We have never met and probably will never meet. I write letters to express my feelings so I thought I should write on but this stage in my life. Surprise I have a crush on you hence the “Dear Crush” part. Don’t be alarmed as I’m sure the curse will be enacted within the next couple of weeks and everything will go back to normal. What is the curse you say? When I was a girl of 5 a witch came and cursed me….no, not really but a gal has to wonder sometimes. Ever since I can remember, the story of my love life has gone like this: I like guy, guy meets other girl, guy marries other girl, I like another guy, another guy meets another girl and so on. The way of the curse has never been broken and it is unlikely to happen in this case either. Sad as it might seem it never fails, trust me. So can you let me just pretend for the time being that the curse doesn’t exist? I hope you don’t mind. I’m sure you won’t. You seem to be such a down-to-earth guy and I’m sure any girl that you marry will be very lucky to have you. I must admit I had no interest at first but the more I learned about you the more I started to take notice. I hear that you are a Christian and spend a lot of time at your church whenever you can. That is great!!! I also spend a lot of time at my church serving God when and wherever I can. I mainly serve in the music ministry by playing the piano and singing. A little birdie told me that you are a huge music fan. As anyone around here and they will definitively tell you that I am obsessed with music. I think that music was my first love…Tim Czekalski was my second. It broke my heart to see him get married, I mean, he could’ve waited 10 or so years for me couldn’t he? (Just kidding about this one) Remember the curse?

I have dreamed that we would meet in the airport. We could be on the same flight and just happen to sit together. You would say hi and ask me how I’m doing. I’d tell you all about myself and you’d ask me my opinions on life. We’d arrive at our destination and before each of us went our different ways you’d kiss me and ask for my phone#. I’d scold you for kissing me and happily write down my phone# for you. I think that this would’ve been the best “How did you meet story?” ever written. It would truly be a miracle that our paths would cross on that day (not that it wouldn’t be a miracle on any given day) and it sure would make for a happy beginning. Yet society dictates that someone like you being interested in someone like me only makes for good movie plots. I understand that you have your pick of any girl in the world. All you have to do is wave a little bit of your hard-earned money in front of their faces and they’ll swoon. I hope you are the same in person inside you portray yourself to be. The reason I like you is because you seem to be a wonderful person not because you make very good money. For that guy that I see is a rare find in this day and age. A few days ago I saw you and my heart whispered “I want to marry him” then something horrible happened to you. My heart leapt into my throat but thankfully you were ok and went out about your life like nothing was wrong. Last night I dreamed about you. I can’t remember what the specifics were but it was nice to have you in my dreams. I’m always happy around this stage of the crush as my mind plays tricks on me. It makes me think that I have a chance with you and that someday we will meet. The next stage is when reality strikes and smacks some common sense in me. I tend to dislike that stage and I must admit I dread that it is coming.

I know I will meet someone special someday somehow as will you. As you might know, God has an interesting way of working things out. If I know me, I know God will show me that this is just a silly high school crush. I hope that all continues to go well with you and that you continue to serve God as you always have done.

Sincerely,

Cursed Christa

***Disclaimer-This letter was written solely for the purpose of explaining and expressing my feelings. I did think of a certain person when I wrote this but it is just a crush and nothing else.In fact, I found out he has a girlfriend and is quite taken with her....anybody want to question the curse??***